Missing

The worst way to miss someone

is to be sitting right beside them

knowing you can't have them.....

hope you would understand...



Find time to realize

that there is one person

who means so much to you,

for you might wake up one morning

losing that person

whom you thought meant nothing to you...

Ini postingan dari blognya Vina.. And I really experience this one.. Reminds me of time when I realized my feeling just one day before that girl flew to Palembang..... And it keeps repeating!!!

Tenang buanget........

Well, it happened just 3 days ago, when I finished doing my ESP group work. When I stepped out from the class, somebody called. And, i was so shocked, for it was the one who promised not to speak to me again.
The conversation started, and I loved to see his face when he pause for a while, and said, "It's been a while......" Wuakakakakakakakakaka!!!! So dramatic. Deep inside me, I was so relieved to see him like that.
He asked, "Do you know that it has cost me pain all this time?" I nodded. The truth is, I know it, and I was so relieved (again) to hear his confession.
For the whole conversation, I played ice statue (or, that's actually the way I am....), and keep calm. Surprisingly, he shocked to see me like that, and started to accuse me, "Stop playing mentaly superior!!!" Hey, hey, I'm not playing mentally superior. That's just the way I am!!!!!
When he asked me, "Did you know that I was so angry with you? When I see you, I want to punch you! When I see you laugh, I want to choke you to death!"
I nodded again. No expression.
"What do you feel? Don;t you want to do anything?" he asked.
"No, I don't care with your being angry. It's your bussiness. You have your own business, I have my own business!"
and the conversation went on (that's another story...)

The reason why I post this is that I found that my calmness can also be annoying for those speaking emotional to me. Calmness is surely to beat emotion.....