Sunday, November 16, 2008

(Is it Really) A Marriage Proposal??

Yep, you read the title right, a marriage proposal. And this proposal was really given to me by "the little devil". (She's probably out of her mind, eh?)

The story took place when I was adjudicating for Indonesian debate competition in campus. The clock was already at 17.15, and it was the last round of debate that day. I was so damn tired, since I've been adjudicating since 09.00, continuously, as well as helping the tabulation. I stretched my body on my chair, and at that moment, I saw her sitting in the back row of the room. DAMN, said I in my head. But then, I tried to think positively, that probably she needed some entertainment after attending the expo stand for the whole day.

The round was over. Me, Pak Karmin, and Ferer were walking out of the room, when she suddenly came over to me. She pat my shoulder and said, "Mas, I got to say thank you!"

Cold voice mode: on. I answered, "For what?"

"For making me annoyed. I started to study harder then!"

Still in freezing tone, "Oh. Good for you!"

SHe looked at me gaily (sorry, got to use this old term.. Hehehehe!) "And anyway, I change my target already!"

I smiled at heart. YES! YES! YES! But, I gotta maintain my charisma, and still with a whisper from within the blizzard storm, I answered, "OK!" Short, cold, and straight.

"I ain't aiming to be your girlfriend again!" Wooohoooo!!!!! I felt like hopping around like a drunken bunny. FINALLY!!!!!

"My target now is to be your wife!"

BLAAAR!!!! The clear sky seemed to be dark and stormy. My world suddenly turned upside down. SHE'S CRAZY!!!!!!!!!! Totally crazyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! I had enough with her, and by all mind tried to shoo her outta my way. But, she's too aggressive to be shooed. *changing the setting into Crisis on Infinite Earths #10 cover, where Superman cried over Supergirl's dead body (Ooops, spoiler!) NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Dammit, dammit, dammit! Since that time, she started acting like a spoiled girlfriend from hell, attached too close, which made me hate her even more. Eeeeew!!!!!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Revisiting the Concept of Hero


Revisiting November 10, a day supposed to be a memorial for all the late heroes. Many writings in newspaper tried to redefine what it meant to be a hero. Yep, surprisingly the memorial day this year was close with the execution day of Amrozi and friends, people responsible of Bali bombing terror.

For some people, they are seen as the devil incarnation, who dared to erase many people from their existence within this plane. More than one hundred people (hope I'm not mistaken) had been killed during the tragedy. But for some others, they are considered as the purificator of the so-called Indonistan (sorry, I borrowed this term from one of the famous BB in the net).

But then, the Dutch also considered Pangeran Diponegoro as the devil incarnation during the Diponegoro war. Meanwhile, he is one of Indonesian great heroes.

Then, I came back to the old yin yang theory proposed by a lady I know. It was said that there is no single soul ever considered as the saviour. For if one would be a saviour, then this soul would be seen as the eliminator by the other sides. When a hero saved one party, he beat the other party. Thus, by his party, he would be seen as someone good, but as someone evil for the beaten side. Hero for one side is automatically evil for the other side. Just like shadow cannot exist without light, and vice versa.

But then, how could people judge whether someone is a hero or a traitor?

It might be a bit freakish, but I would like to put a focus on the philosophy of the whole Gundam series. Well, to be honest, this is the first series which made me think of good and evil.

In the classic plot, there were two characters, each played important role. One is Amuro Ray from the Earth Federation, and the other is Char Aznable from Zeon. During the whole canon, Char was viewed as the evil one, while Amuro is the angel. Quite strange, I prefer Char as the good guy in the story (My fault probably, for I watched the closing movie of the whole canon, Char's Counterattack). Then, I saw that both were heroes. Amuro was considered as a hero for the Earth Federation, while Char was a hero for Zeon and Colonies. However, Amuro was also considered as the grim reaper for Zeon and Colonies, and vice versa. Many side story movies were produced, and those took different point of view, both from Zeon and Earth Federation.

Thus, stepping from those view, I started to look for a new definition of Heroes. Probably, it's time to (borrowing the tagline of Marvel vs Capcom 2) A New Age of Heroes...

Well, in short, what is the conclusion? I got to say that IMHO, hero or evil is just a matter of perception. Let the people build a monument for Amrozi, and let other people spit at it. It's their right to choose which side they are on. Me? I'll keep on my track. Hell with being evil or hero.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Office oh Office............


I wanted to stay away from my office for a while! That's for sure.

I don't know why, probably i'm being too naive to think that this office is really something. That no problem will ever happen here.

Then, voila! Many problems came!

My probation period is prolonged, since the last period, I got not really positive comments from students in my class. But, in fact, even my partner in that class, a long time lecturer from English Education, also got even worse comment than me.. That class was really a hard class. Lifting up their mood is a very hard job.

I am expected (indirectly) to stay in the office, while doing nothing. For in fact, the work management is crumbled and totally disorganized. The longer I stay in the office, the more acceptance I will get. But doing nothing? Waiting for empty space until my jaw drop? I can use my time for another productive things, dude! The risk is, I will be alienated from the office. People started thinking that I am anti social! Being regarded as anti-social really help me to be out from the long-formed-bond..... Dilemma, eh?

I found many things hidden beneath the veil of tranquility. People there are really smart to hide those problems under their hospitality. Hidden hostility, should I say.

Dammit, I really want to throw it away in a writing, but my brain is too messed up.