The Road Not Taken

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

(Robert Frost)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Well, another poem I got from literature class. Somehow, I feel that this poem is so me (gw banget, gitu loh!!). I know, that life has so much paths, and not all paths were equally taken. Some paths were rarely taken, or even never been taken before. And to think further abut thing called normality, or usuallity, which decided by majoruty, people who took the other paths will be considered strange, nerd, geek, or whatsoever! You know, I'm one of them. I'm a part of people who took that strange path. Sometimes, it's kinda hard to be something strange, because of others' mockery or commentary. It's depressing though, but somehow, deep inside me, I'm proud to be different, and let me tell you all what a Nerd and Geek can do. Because I took the one less traveled by, and that will made all the difference!!!!

Be The Best

Be The Best of Whatever You Are

(Douglas Malloch)

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Of you can't be a pine on the top of the hill,

Be a scrub in the valley, but be

The best little scrub by the side of the rill

Be a bush if you can't be a tree

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If you can't be a bush be a bit of grass

And some highway happier make

Of you can't be a muskie then just be a bass

But the liveliest bass in the lake

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We can't all be captains, we've got to be crew

There's something for all of us here

There's big work ro do, and there's lesser to do

And the task you must do is the near

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If you can't be a highway then just be a trail

If you can't be a sun be a star

It isn't by size that you win or fail.

Just be the best whatever you are!!

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I dedicated this poem to one of my best friends, Naomi. She's left to Bandung and won't back for a long time. I don't even know the reason why she'd do that, but I only hope the best for her, for she's been accompannying me through my thick and thin, thus make her one of my special people. Mi, whatever you are, just do your best!! I'm hoping for your happiness and success.

This Is Just To Say

This Is Just To Say

(William Carlos Williams)

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I have eaten

the plums

that were in

the icebox

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and which

you were probably

saving

for breakfast

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Forgive me

they were delicious

so sweet

and so cold

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Okay, I just got this poetry in my literature class. And though my lecturer said that this poem was so simple (and open interpretation too), I interpret this very different, and I thought it was too far. But, honestly, that interpretation went along with my recent feeling. Yeah, I want to ask for forgiveness to one of my best friend, because I took away your "plum, which you were probably saving for breakfast". I know I regret that, but as last stanzas says, I enjoy it too, which add my burden, especially when seeing you!

Another reflection........

Well, last night I did something very unusual, sending SMS to almost all of my friend, and ask them, what will they remember about me, if i die and they come to the funeral. Simply, the reaction is common, some of them thought that I'm desperate enough and want to commit suicide. But all of them give me a reply and fortunately they tell me that I am worthy enough to be remembered.

I don't know why, but these few day I feel very worthless and if I die, no one will ever come to my funeral (or even when they come, it's only just for formality). Because who am I? Only a mere boy, closed mind, anti-social, and even unadaptative!!!

As my previous post, I realized, that I do undergo a change, contradictive with my previous statement that somehow people change, but I don't. I feel that I'm not respected in every situation, and my sociality is very strange for people in my age.

Some people said that I'm different, and thus make me unique. But they don;t even have a glance that this world is not for someone different! I've experienced it, being something different and thus being alienated! Not to mention that great mistake..........

Perhaps, it's right that I'm to silent in all condition, always thinking about someone else, and have no time for myself. Or even Im maturing too fast, and thus have no childhood.........

I don't know it......

Or perhaps, I'll never know it!

Just a reflection!

Sometimes, I think that I do change too, especially when remembering that I ever stated that people always change, but I don't. Yet, I don't think that I've changed to positive one, but I go to negative one. All of you who know me in SMA, might be very surprised to know me now. I'm different, not as open as I used to be. I become an introvert person, a closed, and even can be considered as an anti social being.

Maybe, this time, I change too much, symbolized by my name changing. I grow into different person, trapped in my painful past, and exiling myself to the darkness and solitude! I don't know what to be......... I wish I know, what to do, what to be, and where to go...........

Tak Bisa memiliki

Aku tak bisa memiliki

Menjaga cintamu

Walau sesungguhnya hatiku mencintaimu, memilikimu

Aku tak ingin kau terluka

Mencintai aku

Hapuslah air matamu dan lupakan aku

(Tak Bisa Memiliki - Dygta)

Well, I can't and shan't have you, because if I do, it'll just make you tortured. Yet, I do like you, I do. But it's very impossible for me to have you. Really, I post this song, dedicated to you! I wish I could erase our past stry, but without it, we will lose everything we have right now! So, just let this be our friendship, let's not go any further than this!