Silent Conversation

SILENT CONVERSATION

I stopped down and started to look around. No one existed there. What I saw was just a perfect darkness imbued with the essence of dark black velvet. Yeah, I said in my mind, here I am in the perfect solitude. Exiling myself from the troublesome life I had. The world which didn’t even appreciate and accept me the way I am. Who am I? Just a commoner with nothing special!

No one wanted to end up here, in this perfect darkness and emptiness, except me. They were all enjoying their stay under the shower of the sunlight. And how stupid they were to never have time to stay silent and exiling themselves.

No trees were growing around me. No singing birds hopped near me. And even there were no color, except for the perfect black. No scare for the silence, and even no loneliness dwelled in my heart.

But then suddenly, that man came. He was wearing his grey coat, made the situation even brighter. Yeah, the darkness was so perfect, that even a grey one could be shining. He came over me, with a strange smile embedded in his lips. His steps were very light, as if he was floating in the air, stepping on the coral of silence.

“Halt, human!” he said in an instance. And in that moment, I felt that the silence is moving.

“Hail, sir!” answered me quickly. At that time, the aura of solitude covered me as if it was a big and thick cloak. The cold breeze of northern gust caressing my outer layer of my body.

“I am Doma. The angel of silence, ruler of this meadow!” He proclaimed himself loudly, so loud that the shadow and the specter around me knelt before him. I, did also kneeling before him, couldn’t even resist his force and authority.

“Stand up, you little human!” He commanded me with his powerful voice. “Come!”

In an instance, we had walked together around that meadow. The atmosphere had been quieter then, even quieter than before. Solitude had changed from the perfect silence into the sacred and contemplative one. But still, we walked in silence.

“Now, human! Do thy know that this meadow was once brighter than this?”

I shook my head, having no idea what he talked about.

“Yea, it was once a bright meadow, where the sun showering his ray unto those lively trees. It was silent, but a lively silence. Contemplative one. And now……..”

I really had no idea what was he talk about. I just nodded my head softly.

“It is dead silence. I, Doma, the ruler of the meadow, am very unhappy with this. I rule over silence and contemplation, but not the dead one. This is not what I intend to haft! And you know? It changes itself for thou!” said him in rising tone, breaking the silence. And in that moment, all the shadow and the specter were running away with fright. The gust not even dares to blow.

“I did? How come, my lord?”

“Ye haft to know that this is not the exile. Ye may not exile thyself here. Nay anger, regret, nor pity is allowed here, because it is meant to be the one for self reflection! The meadow is not meant to be a wasteland of doom and pity, but a shrine to achieve betterment and enlightment. Once anger, regret, and pity enter, it will adjust itself as thine mood!”

Hearing what he said, my heart was trembling. I didn’t mean to break anything in my own pity, only looking for a place to runaway and locking my entire self from the crowd.

“I didn’t mean to……”

“Nay words shall come from thine mouth, filthy creature. You are pitiful, lesser human! Now, move out!”

His voice kept rising in pitch, and his anger seemed to devour me in a bottomless hole. He stared at me, and in a glance, I felt his anger. It’s not even an anger, but endless fury, for I had ruined his land.

“Go away! Back to thine place! Ye art not welcome hither!” proclaimed him in a very powerful tone, absolute command that I couldn’t resist. I turned back and walked my path away from the land.

“Thank you for your patron. Then, just let me back to my world! I don’t need a place like this to pity myself! Let me just struggle with this pain which broke me inside. Hell with the pity!” shouted I.

Minute later, I was tempted to look back at him, and I got nothing there. The shadows were vanished, and the barren land changed into green and silent meadow. As with the changes, the pity and regret in my heart suddenly gone. It went away with the specters. Suddenly my lips were moving and formed a very nice smile, and I felt the hand of Doma on my shoulder.

Yeah, he gave me his permission to stay.